Man I've been really depressed lately. And it all just came to a climax tonight. I figured I might as well come back here because, if I didn't, I don't know what I would've done. Scream? Cry? Get mad? Break things? I have no idea. So what's made me so crazy? Let's see...
There's girl troubles. Of course, when it's me there's girl troubles. Every girl I like is either taken, or not interested. And let's be honest, no girl has ever just liked me. It's always been either family or friends setting me up with someone. All the girls I currently like want nothing whatsoever to do with me. And the ONE girl who actually looked like she had an interest in me? Well obviously I'm depressed right? She didn't even give it a chance. She found another guy. Feelings gone. We might not even be friends long after this post seeing as I just flipped shit on her for no good reason.
My friends don't ever call me up. Ever. I've spent most of my summer hanging out with my mother. As thrilling as that is, I can't help but realize just how pathetic I must be for nobody to want me around. Kat, Ana, Mandi and Thilini, I found out, are just school friends. They don't want anything to do with me outside of school. Nobody does. They hung out together without me. As did Derek and Nav. As did mostly every "friend" I thought I had.
But that's just how it is now. I pay attention in school, I have a bright future ahead of me, I respect, care, understand, and have an open mind for any woman I love, I don't smoke, drink, do drugs, steal, do anything illegal...so why am I hated so much? These are good things...these are things that anyone should want. But nobody wants me. Everyone hates me. Why?
Well that pretty much takes care of that. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to curl up on my bed in the fetal position and cry my eyes out.
Remember guys:
Stay Strong
Stay...oh who the fuck am I kidding? Nobody's reading this.
And THAT'S the 411.
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