Man I've been really depressed lately. And it all just came to a climax tonight. I figured I might as well come back here because, if I didn't, I don't know what I would've done. Scream? Cry? Get mad? Break things? I have no idea. So what's made me so crazy? Let's see...
There's girl troubles. Of course, when it's me there's girl troubles. Every girl I like is either taken, or not interested. And let's be honest, no girl has ever just liked me. It's always been either family or friends setting me up with someone. All the girls I currently like want nothing whatsoever to do with me. And the ONE girl who actually looked like she had an interest in me? Well obviously I'm depressed right? She didn't even give it a chance. She found another guy. Feelings gone. We might not even be friends long after this post seeing as I just flipped shit on her for no good reason.
My friends don't ever call me up. Ever. I've spent most of my summer hanging out with my mother. As thrilling as that is, I can't help but realize just how pathetic I must be for nobody to want me around. Kat, Ana, Mandi and Thilini, I found out, are just school friends. They don't want anything to do with me outside of school. Nobody does. They hung out together without me. As did Derek and Nav. As did mostly every "friend" I thought I had.
But that's just how it is now. I pay attention in school, I have a bright future ahead of me, I respect, care, understand, and have an open mind for any woman I love, I don't smoke, drink, do drugs, steal, do anything illegal...so why am I hated so much? These are good things...these are things that anyone should want. But nobody wants me. Everyone hates me. Why?
Well that pretty much takes care of that. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to curl up on my bed in the fetal position and cry my eyes out.
Remember guys:
Stay Strong
Stay...oh who the fuck am I kidding? Nobody's reading this.
And THAT'S the 411.
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Homecoming
Hey guys! It's been a LONG LONG while since my last blog so I figured we're overdue for a massacre.
Being at Chinguacousy has done wonders for me. I have friends who value their education (well at least 95% of them), my confidence with women is going up after each anime convention (which is ironic, considering that's when they look the hottest, but I digress), and my marks have never been higher in my high school years.
I've already sewn my pincushion, which nanna called dibs on instantly, and will be starting my pajama pants tomorrow. I already cut out the patterns, so all I need to do is pin and sew. Should be pimpin those bitches by the end of the week. In the past 3 quizzes and 2 tests in science, I'm averaging at LEAST a 90. Which is wicked for me considering I failed grade 9 science in Lincoln. Take that, shitty malton school!
Mom just came home after being in Michigan for 2 months. I'm really happy to have her back home, but she just seems so depressed. It's kinda getting me down too. But we should be spending a lot more time together. Hopefully. Lava Cake!^^
Not everything is positive however. Despite me and Katherine going 6 months strong (7 in 3 days^^), I am still plagued by the curse of liking multiple girls. It doesn't help that they're either:
a) Taken
b) Not Interested
or
c) Both
I wanted to go for an Open Relationship, but because I'm jumping from the "yes" platform to the "no" platform so fast, she's reluctant. She's also the jealous type so I may have an issue.
On a lighter note, I got all the financing done for moving out with Katherine next year. All we gotta do is average about $115 per week and we're good. We could do that with a part-time job! But no punches are being pulled here. I'd heavily prefer a unionized job, safe and secure, so we're not fucked over on a drop of the dime.
Also just finished the best Halloween weekend EVER! The Anime North Halloween Festival was a blast. We spent more time in the dance portion than we did last year. But who could blame us with Caramelldansen playing? Also Ishmail. That guy was amazingly funny. He didn't give a fuck what people thought, he just acted like an idiot and loved every moment. Hopefully I can come out of my shell like that one day. We hung around his group all day, including a Lady Gaga cosplayer who did NOT look like she was enjoying herself. I was going to ask a Kagome cosplayer by the name of Evelynn (sweet name) to dance, but alas, she left before I could muster the courage. Oh well, just another regret. Nothing too bad. Not as bad as Maka...I can't even remember her name...
After that, Katherine was supposed to come over, but she got grounded for a bogus call from her teacher. Just another reason to have her moms head on a spike. Instead I followed Alice, Rose and Katie to Square One, wherein we went shopping (I'm never allowing them to pull me into bra and panty shops again -.-), and I picked up the full season of Drawn Together. God did I ever miss that show.
I'm missing a lot of my old friends, old friends whom I've lost a lot of respect for, but still can't seem to forget. Nav, Gemma, Meghan, etc. Oh well, I think that's enough ranting for one night. I'll try to post a lot more often. There's a lot more going on in the life of the Medieval Massacre.
Don't forget to check out my Let's Play of Medabots: Metabee Version for the GBA on youtube. http://www.youtube.com/user/TheMedievalMassacre?feature=mhum
Remember followers:
Stay clean.
Stay smart.
Stay strong.
And that's the 411.
Being at Chinguacousy has done wonders for me. I have friends who value their education (well at least 95% of them), my confidence with women is going up after each anime convention (which is ironic, considering that's when they look the hottest, but I digress), and my marks have never been higher in my high school years.
I've already sewn my pincushion, which nanna called dibs on instantly, and will be starting my pajama pants tomorrow. I already cut out the patterns, so all I need to do is pin and sew. Should be pimpin those bitches by the end of the week. In the past 3 quizzes and 2 tests in science, I'm averaging at LEAST a 90. Which is wicked for me considering I failed grade 9 science in Lincoln. Take that, shitty malton school!
Mom just came home after being in Michigan for 2 months. I'm really happy to have her back home, but she just seems so depressed. It's kinda getting me down too. But we should be spending a lot more time together. Hopefully. Lava Cake!^^
Not everything is positive however. Despite me and Katherine going 6 months strong (7 in 3 days^^), I am still plagued by the curse of liking multiple girls. It doesn't help that they're either:
a) Taken
b) Not Interested
or
c) Both
I wanted to go for an Open Relationship, but because I'm jumping from the "yes" platform to the "no" platform so fast, she's reluctant. She's also the jealous type so I may have an issue.
On a lighter note, I got all the financing done for moving out with Katherine next year. All we gotta do is average about $115 per week and we're good. We could do that with a part-time job! But no punches are being pulled here. I'd heavily prefer a unionized job, safe and secure, so we're not fucked over on a drop of the dime.
Also just finished the best Halloween weekend EVER! The Anime North Halloween Festival was a blast. We spent more time in the dance portion than we did last year. But who could blame us with Caramelldansen playing? Also Ishmail. That guy was amazingly funny. He didn't give a fuck what people thought, he just acted like an idiot and loved every moment. Hopefully I can come out of my shell like that one day. We hung around his group all day, including a Lady Gaga cosplayer who did NOT look like she was enjoying herself. I was going to ask a Kagome cosplayer by the name of Evelynn (sweet name) to dance, but alas, she left before I could muster the courage. Oh well, just another regret. Nothing too bad. Not as bad as Maka...I can't even remember her name...
After that, Katherine was supposed to come over, but she got grounded for a bogus call from her teacher. Just another reason to have her moms head on a spike. Instead I followed Alice, Rose and Katie to Square One, wherein we went shopping (I'm never allowing them to pull me into bra and panty shops again -.-), and I picked up the full season of Drawn Together. God did I ever miss that show.
I'm missing a lot of my old friends, old friends whom I've lost a lot of respect for, but still can't seem to forget. Nav, Gemma, Meghan, etc. Oh well, I think that's enough ranting for one night. I'll try to post a lot more often. There's a lot more going on in the life of the Medieval Massacre.
Don't forget to check out my Let's Play of Medabots: Metabee Version for the GBA on youtube. http://www.youtube.com/user/TheMedievalMassacre?feature=mhum
Remember followers:
Stay clean.
Stay smart.
Stay strong.
And that's the 411.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
It's a me! A-Massacre!
Sup followers? I don't care much for my usual intro so you'll have to read on to see what's new with me. Ready? Well then it's time for a Massacre.
First off, my long hiatus was mostly due to me having the best month in the world. My girlfriend came down to live at her aunt and uncles place while she went to summer school and I got to see her almost every day. I met the Aunt and Uncle, watched some movies, dueled the Uncle and her nephews in Yu-Gi-Oh, met the grandmother and sister, got "The Rules", "The Shit List" and the "Things to do at Wal Mart. I'm trying the anti-depressants one. Well she had to go back as of early August but the great news is...she's coming down permanently^^ That's right, she's either moving in with her Aunt and Uncle or her mom in Brampton. Wish there was something we could do for her mom when she made the horrible choice to be with that abusive, evil, vile, putrid man...but there isn't.
I went to the gym recently with Kyoni, Neo and Abs. My muscles still hurt really bad but this is something I think I could really get into. Combine it with some swimming and Chinguacousy's Weight Program and I'll hurt a lot but damned if I won't be a sexy Sephiroth come next year's Anime North.
I also found out that one of my male friends likes me. I don't know how to handle it, to be honest. I've never been liked by a guy. I don't like him back, that's for sure, and I take it as a compliment, but still. He's hitting on me with the whole Sephiroth thing and it makes me a little uncomfortable. I don't know what to do...
Me and my girl have entered an open relationship, where we can date multiple people and love multiple people. Most that I've talked to seem to think something went wrong with us because of this, and I can say now that that's not the case. Open relationships aren't bad, hell I've loved the concept for years. It doesn't mean love is diverted into sections, and one person is loved more than the other. But now...there's a girl I want to ask out, or at least flirt with and get to know more about. But it's going to be hard. She's Ippo's younger brothers friend. Also, she's 11 years old. Well, we'll see where the rainbow takes me.
FanExpo is coming up and I'm really excited! Stars attending include: Adam West, William Shatner, Worf (Star Trek: TNG), Nancy (Nightmare on Elm Street),Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), Carlisle (Twilight Saga), Codex (The Guild), Vic Mignogna (pronouced MIN-yon-AH and star of such animes as Full Metal Alchemist (as Edward Elric), Soul Eater (as Death Scythe) and Angelic Layer (as the annnouncer)), Brad Swaile (Death Note as Light Yagami and Black Lagoon as Rock), and Johnny Yong Bosch (Bleach as Ichigo Kurosagi, Code Geass as Lelouche, Mighty Morphin Power Rangers as Zack (Black)). I want to get JYB to sign my video cassette of MMPR, it'd be so awesome! So far myself, Kitty, Ippo, Nitron, Neo, Kyoni, Abs, and Zera are going and it's gonna be a wild ride. Definitely something to blog about so stay tuned to my first blog of September because FanExpo is gracing our summer from August 27th to the 29th.
Well thanks for listening to my rants everyone. If I forget anything I'll tack it on later. In the meantime:
Stay Strong
Stay Smart
Stay Clean
And that's the 411.
First off, my long hiatus was mostly due to me having the best month in the world. My girlfriend came down to live at her aunt and uncles place while she went to summer school and I got to see her almost every day. I met the Aunt and Uncle, watched some movies, dueled the Uncle and her nephews in Yu-Gi-Oh, met the grandmother and sister, got "The Rules", "The Shit List" and the "Things to do at Wal Mart. I'm trying the anti-depressants one. Well she had to go back as of early August but the great news is...she's coming down permanently^^ That's right, she's either moving in with her Aunt and Uncle or her mom in Brampton. Wish there was something we could do for her mom when she made the horrible choice to be with that abusive, evil, vile, putrid man...but there isn't.
I went to the gym recently with Kyoni, Neo and Abs. My muscles still hurt really bad but this is something I think I could really get into. Combine it with some swimming and Chinguacousy's Weight Program and I'll hurt a lot but damned if I won't be a sexy Sephiroth come next year's Anime North.
I also found out that one of my male friends likes me. I don't know how to handle it, to be honest. I've never been liked by a guy. I don't like him back, that's for sure, and I take it as a compliment, but still. He's hitting on me with the whole Sephiroth thing and it makes me a little uncomfortable. I don't know what to do...
Me and my girl have entered an open relationship, where we can date multiple people and love multiple people. Most that I've talked to seem to think something went wrong with us because of this, and I can say now that that's not the case. Open relationships aren't bad, hell I've loved the concept for years. It doesn't mean love is diverted into sections, and one person is loved more than the other. But now...there's a girl I want to ask out, or at least flirt with and get to know more about. But it's going to be hard. She's Ippo's younger brothers friend. Also, she's 11 years old. Well, we'll see where the rainbow takes me.
FanExpo is coming up and I'm really excited! Stars attending include: Adam West, William Shatner, Worf (Star Trek: TNG), Nancy (Nightmare on Elm Street),Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), Carlisle (Twilight Saga), Codex (The Guild), Vic Mignogna (pronouced MIN-yon-AH and star of such animes as Full Metal Alchemist (as Edward Elric), Soul Eater (as Death Scythe) and Angelic Layer (as the annnouncer)), Brad Swaile (Death Note as Light Yagami and Black Lagoon as Rock), and Johnny Yong Bosch (Bleach as Ichigo Kurosagi, Code Geass as Lelouche, Mighty Morphin Power Rangers as Zack (Black)). I want to get JYB to sign my video cassette of MMPR, it'd be so awesome! So far myself, Kitty, Ippo, Nitron, Neo, Kyoni, Abs, and Zera are going and it's gonna be a wild ride. Definitely something to blog about so stay tuned to my first blog of September because FanExpo is gracing our summer from August 27th to the 29th.
Well thanks for listening to my rants everyone. If I forget anything I'll tack it on later. In the meantime:
Stay Strong
Stay Smart
Stay Clean
And that's the 411.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Clothes
I always wondered what my dresser would look like if I were a girl. What kind of fabric would I have? Styles? Colors? Matching? Well...
I think I would want my bra and underwear to match. Just kinda seems like it makes sense. Though mixing and matching different patterns and colors could be fun. And no-one would know but you, your boy/girlfriend at the time, and your girls. That's the fun part. Being able to be totally naked or just in your bra and underwear with your girls. No problems.
Summer time would be the best for me if I were a girl. Skirts, those cute little summer dresses, everything that can flow and twirl. I'd want my dresses to be either yellow, pink, purple or red. My skirts would be sky blue or blood red. And I kinda think I'd toss in the knee-high socks. Stripes^^. Would I wear leggings with the skirt? Hmm...would depend on my mood.
I'd have to bulk on sweaters and jackets in the winter time though because all my clothes would be silks and light stuff. Blouses and such. Maybe even skinny jeans. But in winter it'd be turtlenecks and the fluffy scarves and that sort of bulk.
Yup...essentially my ideal female wardrobe. That's the 411.
I think I would want my bra and underwear to match. Just kinda seems like it makes sense. Though mixing and matching different patterns and colors could be fun. And no-one would know but you, your boy/girlfriend at the time, and your girls. That's the fun part. Being able to be totally naked or just in your bra and underwear with your girls. No problems.
Summer time would be the best for me if I were a girl. Skirts, those cute little summer dresses, everything that can flow and twirl. I'd want my dresses to be either yellow, pink, purple or red. My skirts would be sky blue or blood red. And I kinda think I'd toss in the knee-high socks. Stripes^^. Would I wear leggings with the skirt? Hmm...would depend on my mood.
I'd have to bulk on sweaters and jackets in the winter time though because all my clothes would be silks and light stuff. Blouses and such. Maybe even skinny jeans. But in winter it'd be turtlenecks and the fluffy scarves and that sort of bulk.
Yup...essentially my ideal female wardrobe. That's the 411.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Idiotic Dipshits
My friend nearly got raped. I won't say who, that's not my place, but luckily she escaped. Then, like the dipshit doormat she is, doesn't tell anyone. FUCKING. MORON. You claim you want to change this world you hippocratic waste of space!? I don't care how many people claim that "You don't know what it's like. We can't just TELL someone". YES YOU CAN! Otherwise, you're a coward, living in fear for the rest of your life. Life, society and it's ways have won against you. You are THAT weak. You are pitiful. So lie on the ground like the doormat you are and enjoy your rape.
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