If Wishes Were Fishes

You know...the above heading of this post doesn't really make sense. The plural to fish is fish, not fishes. Although both words are recognized. I guess they both work. Well, ignore my ramblings at about 3:30 in the morning. Just something I had to get off my chest.

Oxford Dictionary defines a wish as:

• verb; desire something that cannot or probably will not happen.

Well this explains my life in a nutshell. One giant wish. In this post I'm going to open up to the entire world and say all of my wishes. I have nothing to hide. Nothing to fear. Nothing to lose. Because anything to do with wishes usually comes in threes, here are my top three wishes:

1. Possibly my biggest wish in the world is that I wish to be a girl. I've been told several times by those I've confided in in the past that a sex change operation can be arranged. But that's not what I wish for, or it would be a want and not a wish. What I wish for is to somehow magically turn into a genuine female. Real breasts, may they be big or small, I could care less. Periods. Child birth. Then I could wear their clothes. This is where I start sounding like a closet Drag-Queen but really I'm not. I love a woman's clothes. Silks, cottons, reds, purples, pinks. But mostly...dresses...blouses...pure beauty. A man's clothes don't portray beauty. Men aren't supposed to be beautiful. Zera and the others wonder why I like Moe girls so much in anime. The answer is simple. I see myself in them. My true self. What I want to be. What I should be. But that isn't reality. And so I walk along this putrid world in the body I was forcefully given. I didn't choose then, and I can't choose now. I can't choose this.

2. Although I'm an avid advocate of the law and would never change that for anyone, I wish my life had more excitement to it. I watch my animes where they're fighting bad guys and being a hero. That's not it though. I want to do something wild, crazy, stupid, spontaneous, yet legal. Something like going on a road trip. With a bunch of my friends. Not knowing where we'll end up or who we'll meet or when we'll get home or even IF we get home. I hate not knowing things but secretly I just want to wake up somewhere and go "What might happen to me today?". But that isn't reality. So I lead my same boring lifestyle day after day. I can't choose this.

3. I wish for all alcohol and drugs to be non-existent. I'm so sick of seeing these druggies and drunks out there destroying their lives and the lives of others they corrupt, like small, innocent, easily impressionable children. Why should they have to suffer? It's not their fault that this has become the norm. Even the cops don't really care. It happens everywhere in broad daylight and no-one is there because no-one cares. What can I do? Run to a cop. "Ok kid we'll get right on it," and then they go eat another cruller. I'm sick of having to analyze every new friend I have to see if they're one of them. Having to be scared if they're lying to me. I see stupidity and weakness in this vile, disgusting human race nowadays. I wish I could end it all; wipe it from the earth. But that isn't reality. So I walk along the smoke-filled ditches of this earth, never fully trusting a soul. I can't choose this.

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IT'S SUMMA TIEM

Exams are over? Summers here? Swimming? Movies? Now that school's not in the way, it's time for a Massacre!

Well folks the moment we've all been waiting for has finally arrived. My exams are over and summer has blossomed! How did exams go, one might ask? Well Chrysanthemum is a life saver. He lent me his calculator that could do trigonometry, so my math exam went fine. I'm fairly sure that I've failed History but hell at least I tried. Food and Nutrition was easy as pie and only lasted 1 hour as opposed to the other ones that lasted an hour and 30 mins.

Me and Kitty capped summer off with a swim in my indoor pool which was fun. We discussed our plans for the week, including going on a job hunt with out friends this coming Tuesday at the Bramalea City Center, going to the movies afterward (I wanna see Prince of Persia personally) and the new Twilight: Eclipse movie coming out.

Things are going good folks. Except I haven't heard from Katherine in a while. Got really scared when the earthquake hit just north of Ottawa. Apparently it was a 5.0 magnitude and everyone at home felt it. I didn't feel anything because I was at school in Brampton. but Mr. Jakobec (excuse my spelling) came in the cafeteria saying mom was on the phone. That's when I found out. Hope you're ok sweetheart!

Till next time folks!
Stay strong.
Stay smart.
Stay clean.
And that's the 411.

Diabetes

Romantic dates? Fun times in the pool? Gleb attacks? Wave makes waves? I'd ask more questions but it's time for a Massacre!

Let's start off with the main event. This past Saturday was amazing. My lovely girlfriend Katherine came over to my place, this being the first time we've seen each other in just over 2 months. She met my parents briefly and then we went down to the pool. Sorry to leave you all with a time gap but I don't know how much I'm allowed to say so let's just skip to after the pool.

Noticing we forgot to bring towels like the brilliant couple we are, we air-dried and went upstairs where I put the finishing touches on our date. Candle-lit dinner with non-alcoholic champagne and roses on the table. Music in the background (it was Japanese but it was sweet) and rose petals on the bed. It was perfect. I lit the candles, shut off the lights and brought her in. Exactly the reaction I was hoping for. She was speechless. She loved it. Cried even. I was so happy I could be with here. Another time gap for obvious reasons.

I went to bring her home. Wanted her home by 8:00 because it was the time her parents had set, but the stupid bus wasn't coming until 8:26! So we waited. We had to! It brought us to Williams Parkway where we were to catch the 12 to Holy Name. That bus never came and Wave's family was waiting for me so they could drive me to Ippo's birthday party. Everyone was pissed. I blame Gleb.

So we figured that the bus wasn't ever going to show up. Don't know why but it was being a bitch. So Wave and his brother and dad meet us where we are and drive Katherine home. Thank you guys so much if you can see this! You saved us!

We got to the party and apparently one of my friends had a bet on me that, at the moment, I'm not allowed to talk about. Either way I'm a little pissed off. Other than that we played Zombies. Zera was creepy. P6 and Citizen had a yaoi moment (my...god...), and we just had a great time all around. Ippo had fun opening Saiyu's gift. We'll get him back though. But yeah, that was my weekend. How was yours?

In the meantime:
Stay strong.
Stay smart.
Stay clean.
And that's the 411.

Anime North!

Cute cosplayers? Weird traps? Posters? Autographs? Dawn from Pokemon is a whore? Oh shit motha fuckas, Massacre Tiem!

I went to Anime North this weekend and I wish it didn't ever have to end. Everyone there is like family. I loved it. Went with Zera and Nitron (they're first AN, my 3rd) and later we met up with Ippo, cosplaying as Rictor Belmont. We competed in Dissidia tournaments, we watched great panels with the Abridged cast and a hilarious Pokeparty. I got pictures and autographs from 4 of the english voice actors for Soul Eater. It was amazing.

I met a really cute Maka (Soul Eater) cosplayer during the autograph signings. Her name is Natalie. I still remember it. We hung out for a bit and talked. She was awesome and so bubbly and cute^^. I was supposed to get her msn before she left but her friend Amy dragged her out. She lives in Niagra Falls. Last time I'll ever see her.

School sucks...yeah...

Till next time! Stay smart, stay strong, stay clean!
And that's the 411.