Hey guys! It's been a LONG LONG while since my last blog so I figured we're overdue for a massacre.
Being at Chinguacousy has done wonders for me. I have friends who value their education (well at least 95% of them), my confidence with women is going up after each anime convention (which is ironic, considering that's when they look the hottest, but I digress), and my marks have never been higher in my high school years.
I've already sewn my pincushion, which nanna called dibs on instantly, and will be starting my pajama pants tomorrow. I already cut out the patterns, so all I need to do is pin and sew. Should be pimpin those bitches by the end of the week. In the past 3 quizzes and 2 tests in science, I'm averaging at LEAST a 90. Which is wicked for me considering I failed grade 9 science in Lincoln. Take that, shitty malton school!
Mom just came home after being in Michigan for 2 months. I'm really happy to have her back home, but she just seems so depressed. It's kinda getting me down too. But we should be spending a lot more time together. Hopefully. Lava Cake!^^
Not everything is positive however. Despite me and Katherine going 6 months strong (7 in 3 days^^), I am still plagued by the curse of liking multiple girls. It doesn't help that they're either:
a) Taken
b) Not Interested
or
c) Both
I wanted to go for an Open Relationship, but because I'm jumping from the "yes" platform to the "no" platform so fast, she's reluctant. She's also the jealous type so I may have an issue.
On a lighter note, I got all the financing done for moving out with Katherine next year. All we gotta do is average about $115 per week and we're good. We could do that with a part-time job! But no punches are being pulled here. I'd heavily prefer a unionized job, safe and secure, so we're not fucked over on a drop of the dime.
Also just finished the best Halloween weekend EVER! The Anime North Halloween Festival was a blast. We spent more time in the dance portion than we did last year. But who could blame us with Caramelldansen playing? Also Ishmail. That guy was amazingly funny. He didn't give a fuck what people thought, he just acted like an idiot and loved every moment. Hopefully I can come out of my shell like that one day. We hung around his group all day, including a Lady Gaga cosplayer who did NOT look like she was enjoying herself. I was going to ask a Kagome cosplayer by the name of Evelynn (sweet name) to dance, but alas, she left before I could muster the courage. Oh well, just another regret. Nothing too bad. Not as bad as Maka...I can't even remember her name...
After that, Katherine was supposed to come over, but she got grounded for a bogus call from her teacher. Just another reason to have her moms head on a spike. Instead I followed Alice, Rose and Katie to Square One, wherein we went shopping (I'm never allowing them to pull me into bra and panty shops again -.-), and I picked up the full season of Drawn Together. God did I ever miss that show.
I'm missing a lot of my old friends, old friends whom I've lost a lot of respect for, but still can't seem to forget. Nav, Gemma, Meghan, etc. Oh well, I think that's enough ranting for one night. I'll try to post a lot more often. There's a lot more going on in the life of the Medieval Massacre.
Don't forget to check out my Let's Play of Medabots: Metabee Version for the GBA on youtube. http://www.youtube.com/user/TheMedievalMassacre?feature=mhum
Remember followers:
Stay clean.
Stay smart.
Stay strong.
And that's the 411.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
It's a me! A-Massacre!
Sup followers? I don't care much for my usual intro so you'll have to read on to see what's new with me. Ready? Well then it's time for a Massacre.
First off, my long hiatus was mostly due to me having the best month in the world. My girlfriend came down to live at her aunt and uncles place while she went to summer school and I got to see her almost every day. I met the Aunt and Uncle, watched some movies, dueled the Uncle and her nephews in Yu-Gi-Oh, met the grandmother and sister, got "The Rules", "The Shit List" and the "Things to do at Wal Mart. I'm trying the anti-depressants one. Well she had to go back as of early August but the great news is...she's coming down permanently^^ That's right, she's either moving in with her Aunt and Uncle or her mom in Brampton. Wish there was something we could do for her mom when she made the horrible choice to be with that abusive, evil, vile, putrid man...but there isn't.
I went to the gym recently with Kyoni, Neo and Abs. My muscles still hurt really bad but this is something I think I could really get into. Combine it with some swimming and Chinguacousy's Weight Program and I'll hurt a lot but damned if I won't be a sexy Sephiroth come next year's Anime North.
I also found out that one of my male friends likes me. I don't know how to handle it, to be honest. I've never been liked by a guy. I don't like him back, that's for sure, and I take it as a compliment, but still. He's hitting on me with the whole Sephiroth thing and it makes me a little uncomfortable. I don't know what to do...
Me and my girl have entered an open relationship, where we can date multiple people and love multiple people. Most that I've talked to seem to think something went wrong with us because of this, and I can say now that that's not the case. Open relationships aren't bad, hell I've loved the concept for years. It doesn't mean love is diverted into sections, and one person is loved more than the other. But now...there's a girl I want to ask out, or at least flirt with and get to know more about. But it's going to be hard. She's Ippo's younger brothers friend. Also, she's 11 years old. Well, we'll see where the rainbow takes me.
FanExpo is coming up and I'm really excited! Stars attending include: Adam West, William Shatner, Worf (Star Trek: TNG), Nancy (Nightmare on Elm Street),Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), Carlisle (Twilight Saga), Codex (The Guild), Vic Mignogna (pronouced MIN-yon-AH and star of such animes as Full Metal Alchemist (as Edward Elric), Soul Eater (as Death Scythe) and Angelic Layer (as the annnouncer)), Brad Swaile (Death Note as Light Yagami and Black Lagoon as Rock), and Johnny Yong Bosch (Bleach as Ichigo Kurosagi, Code Geass as Lelouche, Mighty Morphin Power Rangers as Zack (Black)). I want to get JYB to sign my video cassette of MMPR, it'd be so awesome! So far myself, Kitty, Ippo, Nitron, Neo, Kyoni, Abs, and Zera are going and it's gonna be a wild ride. Definitely something to blog about so stay tuned to my first blog of September because FanExpo is gracing our summer from August 27th to the 29th.
Well thanks for listening to my rants everyone. If I forget anything I'll tack it on later. In the meantime:
Stay Strong
Stay Smart
Stay Clean
And that's the 411.
First off, my long hiatus was mostly due to me having the best month in the world. My girlfriend came down to live at her aunt and uncles place while she went to summer school and I got to see her almost every day. I met the Aunt and Uncle, watched some movies, dueled the Uncle and her nephews in Yu-Gi-Oh, met the grandmother and sister, got "The Rules", "The Shit List" and the "Things to do at Wal Mart. I'm trying the anti-depressants one. Well she had to go back as of early August but the great news is...she's coming down permanently^^ That's right, she's either moving in with her Aunt and Uncle or her mom in Brampton. Wish there was something we could do for her mom when she made the horrible choice to be with that abusive, evil, vile, putrid man...but there isn't.
I went to the gym recently with Kyoni, Neo and Abs. My muscles still hurt really bad but this is something I think I could really get into. Combine it with some swimming and Chinguacousy's Weight Program and I'll hurt a lot but damned if I won't be a sexy Sephiroth come next year's Anime North.
I also found out that one of my male friends likes me. I don't know how to handle it, to be honest. I've never been liked by a guy. I don't like him back, that's for sure, and I take it as a compliment, but still. He's hitting on me with the whole Sephiroth thing and it makes me a little uncomfortable. I don't know what to do...
Me and my girl have entered an open relationship, where we can date multiple people and love multiple people. Most that I've talked to seem to think something went wrong with us because of this, and I can say now that that's not the case. Open relationships aren't bad, hell I've loved the concept for years. It doesn't mean love is diverted into sections, and one person is loved more than the other. But now...there's a girl I want to ask out, or at least flirt with and get to know more about. But it's going to be hard. She's Ippo's younger brothers friend. Also, she's 11 years old. Well, we'll see where the rainbow takes me.
FanExpo is coming up and I'm really excited! Stars attending include: Adam West, William Shatner, Worf (Star Trek: TNG), Nancy (Nightmare on Elm Street),Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), Carlisle (Twilight Saga), Codex (The Guild), Vic Mignogna (pronouced MIN-yon-AH and star of such animes as Full Metal Alchemist (as Edward Elric), Soul Eater (as Death Scythe) and Angelic Layer (as the annnouncer)), Brad Swaile (Death Note as Light Yagami and Black Lagoon as Rock), and Johnny Yong Bosch (Bleach as Ichigo Kurosagi, Code Geass as Lelouche, Mighty Morphin Power Rangers as Zack (Black)). I want to get JYB to sign my video cassette of MMPR, it'd be so awesome! So far myself, Kitty, Ippo, Nitron, Neo, Kyoni, Abs, and Zera are going and it's gonna be a wild ride. Definitely something to blog about so stay tuned to my first blog of September because FanExpo is gracing our summer from August 27th to the 29th.
Well thanks for listening to my rants everyone. If I forget anything I'll tack it on later. In the meantime:
Stay Strong
Stay Smart
Stay Clean
And that's the 411.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Clothes
I always wondered what my dresser would look like if I were a girl. What kind of fabric would I have? Styles? Colors? Matching? Well...
I think I would want my bra and underwear to match. Just kinda seems like it makes sense. Though mixing and matching different patterns and colors could be fun. And no-one would know but you, your boy/girlfriend at the time, and your girls. That's the fun part. Being able to be totally naked or just in your bra and underwear with your girls. No problems.
Summer time would be the best for me if I were a girl. Skirts, those cute little summer dresses, everything that can flow and twirl. I'd want my dresses to be either yellow, pink, purple or red. My skirts would be sky blue or blood red. And I kinda think I'd toss in the knee-high socks. Stripes^^. Would I wear leggings with the skirt? Hmm...would depend on my mood.
I'd have to bulk on sweaters and jackets in the winter time though because all my clothes would be silks and light stuff. Blouses and such. Maybe even skinny jeans. But in winter it'd be turtlenecks and the fluffy scarves and that sort of bulk.
Yup...essentially my ideal female wardrobe. That's the 411.
I think I would want my bra and underwear to match. Just kinda seems like it makes sense. Though mixing and matching different patterns and colors could be fun. And no-one would know but you, your boy/girlfriend at the time, and your girls. That's the fun part. Being able to be totally naked or just in your bra and underwear with your girls. No problems.
Summer time would be the best for me if I were a girl. Skirts, those cute little summer dresses, everything that can flow and twirl. I'd want my dresses to be either yellow, pink, purple or red. My skirts would be sky blue or blood red. And I kinda think I'd toss in the knee-high socks. Stripes^^. Would I wear leggings with the skirt? Hmm...would depend on my mood.
I'd have to bulk on sweaters and jackets in the winter time though because all my clothes would be silks and light stuff. Blouses and such. Maybe even skinny jeans. But in winter it'd be turtlenecks and the fluffy scarves and that sort of bulk.
Yup...essentially my ideal female wardrobe. That's the 411.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Idiotic Dipshits
My friend nearly got raped. I won't say who, that's not my place, but luckily she escaped. Then, like the dipshit doormat she is, doesn't tell anyone. FUCKING. MORON. You claim you want to change this world you hippocratic waste of space!? I don't care how many people claim that "You don't know what it's like. We can't just TELL someone". YES YOU CAN! Otherwise, you're a coward, living in fear for the rest of your life. Life, society and it's ways have won against you. You are THAT weak. You are pitiful. So lie on the ground like the doormat you are and enjoy your rape.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
If Wishes Were Fishes
You know...the above heading of this post doesn't really make sense. The plural to fish is fish, not fishes. Although both words are recognized. I guess they both work. Well, ignore my ramblings at about 3:30 in the morning. Just something I had to get off my chest.
Oxford Dictionary defines a wish as:
1. Possibly my biggest wish in the world is that I wish to be a girl. I've been told several times by those I've confided in in the past that a sex change operation can be arranged. But that's not what I wish for, or it would be a want and not a wish. What I wish for is to somehow magically turn into a genuine female. Real breasts, may they be big or small, I could care less. Periods. Child birth. Then I could wear their clothes. This is where I start sounding like a closet Drag-Queen but really I'm not. I love a woman's clothes. Silks, cottons, reds, purples, pinks. But mostly...dresses...blouses...pure beauty. A man's clothes don't portray beauty. Men aren't supposed to be beautiful. Zera and the others wonder why I like Moe girls so much in anime. The answer is simple. I see myself in them. My true self. What I want to be. What I should be. But that isn't reality. And so I walk along this putrid world in the body I was forcefully given. I didn't choose then, and I can't choose now. I can't choose this.
2. Although I'm an avid advocate of the law and would never change that for anyone, I wish my life had more excitement to it. I watch my animes where they're fighting bad guys and being a hero. That's not it though. I want to do something wild, crazy, stupid, spontaneous, yet legal. Something like going on a road trip. With a bunch of my friends. Not knowing where we'll end up or who we'll meet or when we'll get home or even IF we get home. I hate not knowing things but secretly I just want to wake up somewhere and go "What might happen to me today?". But that isn't reality. So I lead my same boring lifestyle day after day. I can't choose this.
3. I wish for all alcohol and drugs to be non-existent. I'm so sick of seeing these druggies and drunks out there destroying their lives and the lives of others they corrupt, like small, innocent, easily impressionable children. Why should they have to suffer? It's not their fault that this has become the norm. Even the cops don't really care. It happens everywhere in broad daylight and no-one is there because no-one cares. What can I do? Run to a cop. "Ok kid we'll get right on it," and then they go eat another cruller. I'm sick of having to analyze every new friend I have to see if they're one of them. Having to be scared if they're lying to me. I see stupidity and weakness in this vile, disgusting human race nowadays. I wish I could end it all; wipe it from the earth. But that isn't reality. So I walk along the smoke-filled ditches of this earth, never fully trusting a soul. I can't choose this.
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Oxford Dictionary defines a wish as:
• verb; desire something that cannot or probably will not happen.Well this explains my life in a nutshell. One giant wish. In this post I'm going to open up to the entire world and say all of my wishes. I have nothing to hide. Nothing to fear. Nothing to lose. Because anything to do with wishes usually comes in threes, here are my top three wishes:
1. Possibly my biggest wish in the world is that I wish to be a girl. I've been told several times by those I've confided in in the past that a sex change operation can be arranged. But that's not what I wish for, or it would be a want and not a wish. What I wish for is to somehow magically turn into a genuine female. Real breasts, may they be big or small, I could care less. Periods. Child birth. Then I could wear their clothes. This is where I start sounding like a closet Drag-Queen but really I'm not. I love a woman's clothes. Silks, cottons, reds, purples, pinks. But mostly...dresses...blouses...pure beauty. A man's clothes don't portray beauty. Men aren't supposed to be beautiful. Zera and the others wonder why I like Moe girls so much in anime. The answer is simple. I see myself in them. My true self. What I want to be. What I should be. But that isn't reality. And so I walk along this putrid world in the body I was forcefully given. I didn't choose then, and I can't choose now. I can't choose this.
2. Although I'm an avid advocate of the law and would never change that for anyone, I wish my life had more excitement to it. I watch my animes where they're fighting bad guys and being a hero. That's not it though. I want to do something wild, crazy, stupid, spontaneous, yet legal. Something like going on a road trip. With a bunch of my friends. Not knowing where we'll end up or who we'll meet or when we'll get home or even IF we get home. I hate not knowing things but secretly I just want to wake up somewhere and go "What might happen to me today?". But that isn't reality. So I lead my same boring lifestyle day after day. I can't choose this.
3. I wish for all alcohol and drugs to be non-existent. I'm so sick of seeing these druggies and drunks out there destroying their lives and the lives of others they corrupt, like small, innocent, easily impressionable children. Why should they have to suffer? It's not their fault that this has become the norm. Even the cops don't really care. It happens everywhere in broad daylight and no-one is there because no-one cares. What can I do? Run to a cop. "Ok kid we'll get right on it," and then they go eat another cruller. I'm sick of having to analyze every new friend I have to see if they're one of them. Having to be scared if they're lying to me. I see stupidity and weakness in this vile, disgusting human race nowadays. I wish I could end it all; wipe it from the earth. But that isn't reality. So I walk along the smoke-filled ditches of this earth, never fully trusting a soul. I can't choose this.
You want the 411?
Here's the closest you'll ever get.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
IT'S SUMMA TIEM
Exams are over? Summers here? Swimming? Movies? Now that school's not in the way, it's time for a Massacre!
Well folks the moment we've all been waiting for has finally arrived. My exams are over and summer has blossomed! How did exams go, one might ask? Well Chrysanthemum is a life saver. He lent me his calculator that could do trigonometry, so my math exam went fine. I'm fairly sure that I've failed History but hell at least I tried. Food and Nutrition was easy as pie and only lasted 1 hour as opposed to the other ones that lasted an hour and 30 mins.
Me and Kitty capped summer off with a swim in my indoor pool which was fun. We discussed our plans for the week, including going on a job hunt with out friends this coming Tuesday at the Bramalea City Center, going to the movies afterward (I wanna see Prince of Persia personally) and the new Twilight: Eclipse movie coming out.
Things are going good folks. Except I haven't heard from Katherine in a while. Got really scared when the earthquake hit just north of Ottawa. Apparently it was a 5.0 magnitude and everyone at home felt it. I didn't feel anything because I was at school in Brampton. but Mr. Jakobec (excuse my spelling) came in the cafeteria saying mom was on the phone. That's when I found out. Hope you're ok sweetheart!
Till next time folks!
Stay strong.
Stay smart.
Stay clean.
And that's the 411.
Well folks the moment we've all been waiting for has finally arrived. My exams are over and summer has blossomed! How did exams go, one might ask? Well Chrysanthemum is a life saver. He lent me his calculator that could do trigonometry, so my math exam went fine. I'm fairly sure that I've failed History but hell at least I tried. Food and Nutrition was easy as pie and only lasted 1 hour as opposed to the other ones that lasted an hour and 30 mins.
Me and Kitty capped summer off with a swim in my indoor pool which was fun. We discussed our plans for the week, including going on a job hunt with out friends this coming Tuesday at the Bramalea City Center, going to the movies afterward (I wanna see Prince of Persia personally) and the new Twilight: Eclipse movie coming out.
Things are going good folks. Except I haven't heard from Katherine in a while. Got really scared when the earthquake hit just north of Ottawa. Apparently it was a 5.0 magnitude and everyone at home felt it. I didn't feel anything because I was at school in Brampton. but Mr. Jakobec (excuse my spelling) came in the cafeteria saying mom was on the phone. That's when I found out. Hope you're ok sweetheart!
Till next time folks!
Stay strong.
Stay smart.
Stay clean.
And that's the 411.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Diabetes
Romantic dates? Fun times in the pool? Gleb attacks? Wave makes waves? I'd ask more questions but it's time for a Massacre!
Let's start off with the main event. This past Saturday was amazing. My lovely girlfriend Katherine came over to my place, this being the first time we've seen each other in just over 2 months. She met my parents briefly and then we went down to the pool. Sorry to leave you all with a time gap but I don't know how much I'm allowed to say so let's just skip to after the pool.
Noticing we forgot to bring towels like the brilliant couple we are, we air-dried and went upstairs where I put the finishing touches on our date. Candle-lit dinner with non-alcoholic champagne and roses on the table. Music in the background (it was Japanese but it was sweet) and rose petals on the bed. It was perfect. I lit the candles, shut off the lights and brought her in. Exactly the reaction I was hoping for. She was speechless. She loved it. Cried even. I was so happy I could be with here. Another time gap for obvious reasons.
I went to bring her home. Wanted her home by 8:00 because it was the time her parents had set, but the stupid bus wasn't coming until 8:26! So we waited. We had to! It brought us to Williams Parkway where we were to catch the 12 to Holy Name. That bus never came and Wave's family was waiting for me so they could drive me to Ippo's birthday party. Everyone was pissed. I blame Gleb.
So we figured that the bus wasn't ever going to show up. Don't know why but it was being a bitch. So Wave and his brother and dad meet us where we are and drive Katherine home. Thank you guys so much if you can see this! You saved us!
We got to the party and apparently one of my friends had a bet on me that, at the moment, I'm not allowed to talk about. Either way I'm a little pissed off. Other than that we played Zombies. Zera was creepy. P6 and Citizen had a yaoi moment (my...god...), and we just had a great time all around. Ippo had fun opening Saiyu's gift. We'll get him back though. But yeah, that was my weekend. How was yours?
In the meantime:
Stay strong.
Stay smart.
Stay clean.
And that's the 411.
Let's start off with the main event. This past Saturday was amazing. My lovely girlfriend Katherine came over to my place, this being the first time we've seen each other in just over 2 months. She met my parents briefly and then we went down to the pool. Sorry to leave you all with a time gap but I don't know how much I'm allowed to say so let's just skip to after the pool.
Noticing we forgot to bring towels like the brilliant couple we are, we air-dried and went upstairs where I put the finishing touches on our date. Candle-lit dinner with non-alcoholic champagne and roses on the table. Music in the background (it was Japanese but it was sweet) and rose petals on the bed. It was perfect. I lit the candles, shut off the lights and brought her in. Exactly the reaction I was hoping for. She was speechless. She loved it. Cried even. I was so happy I could be with here. Another time gap for obvious reasons.
I went to bring her home. Wanted her home by 8:00 because it was the time her parents had set, but the stupid bus wasn't coming until 8:26! So we waited. We had to! It brought us to Williams Parkway where we were to catch the 12 to Holy Name. That bus never came and Wave's family was waiting for me so they could drive me to Ippo's birthday party. Everyone was pissed. I blame Gleb.
So we figured that the bus wasn't ever going to show up. Don't know why but it was being a bitch. So Wave and his brother and dad meet us where we are and drive Katherine home. Thank you guys so much if you can see this! You saved us!
We got to the party and apparently one of my friends had a bet on me that, at the moment, I'm not allowed to talk about. Either way I'm a little pissed off. Other than that we played Zombies. Zera was creepy. P6 and Citizen had a yaoi moment (my...god...), and we just had a great time all around. Ippo had fun opening Saiyu's gift. We'll get him back though. But yeah, that was my weekend. How was yours?
In the meantime:
Stay strong.
Stay smart.
Stay clean.
And that's the 411.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Anime North!
Cute cosplayers? Weird traps? Posters? Autographs? Dawn from Pokemon is a whore? Oh shit motha fuckas, Massacre Tiem!
I went to Anime North this weekend and I wish it didn't ever have to end. Everyone there is like family. I loved it. Went with Zera and Nitron (they're first AN, my 3rd) and later we met up with Ippo, cosplaying as Rictor Belmont. We competed in Dissidia tournaments, we watched great panels with the Abridged cast and a hilarious Pokeparty. I got pictures and autographs from 4 of the english voice actors for Soul Eater. It was amazing.
I met a really cute Maka (Soul Eater) cosplayer during the autograph signings. Her name is Natalie. I still remember it. We hung out for a bit and talked. She was awesome and so bubbly and cute^^. I was supposed to get her msn before she left but her friend Amy dragged her out. She lives in Niagra Falls. Last time I'll ever see her.
School sucks...yeah...
Till next time! Stay smart, stay strong, stay clean!
And that's the 411.
I went to Anime North this weekend and I wish it didn't ever have to end. Everyone there is like family. I loved it. Went with Zera and Nitron (they're first AN, my 3rd) and later we met up with Ippo, cosplaying as Rictor Belmont. We competed in Dissidia tournaments, we watched great panels with the Abridged cast and a hilarious Pokeparty. I got pictures and autographs from 4 of the english voice actors for Soul Eater. It was amazing.
I met a really cute Maka (Soul Eater) cosplayer during the autograph signings. Her name is Natalie. I still remember it. We hung out for a bit and talked. She was awesome and so bubbly and cute^^. I was supposed to get her msn before she left but her friend Amy dragged her out. She lives in Niagra Falls. Last time I'll ever see her.
School sucks...yeah...
Till next time! Stay smart, stay strong, stay clean!
And that's the 411.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Poetry
The Answers I'm Afraid Of
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I'm searching, though I find myself blind.
Running around, losing my mind.
I find that I'm trapped by societies bind.
What are the answers I'm afraid of?
Why am I scared? Terrified?
Why do I say, "Have confidence," and always lie?
Why should I care about anyone but me, myself and I?
What are the answers I'm afraid of?
I can't get out the courage, even to speak.
Every time I try, I get surprised, and my knees get weak.
This is all overwhelming; my brain's starting to leak.
What are the answers I'm afraid of?
She'll say I'm a loser, my comments don't matter.
She'll run to her friends and begin the secret chatter.
She'll be disgusted that someone like me put his heart on a platter.
These are the answers I'm afraid of...
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I'm searching, though I find myself blind.
Running around, losing my mind.
I find that I'm trapped by societies bind.
What are the answers I'm afraid of?
Why am I scared? Terrified?
Why do I say, "Have confidence," and always lie?
Why should I care about anyone but me, myself and I?
What are the answers I'm afraid of?
I can't get out the courage, even to speak.
Every time I try, I get surprised, and my knees get weak.
This is all overwhelming; my brain's starting to leak.
What are the answers I'm afraid of?
She'll say I'm a loser, my comments don't matter.
She'll run to her friends and begin the secret chatter.
She'll be disgusted that someone like me put his heart on a platter.
These are the answers I'm afraid of...
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
The Actual Plan
A true chessmaster never reveals his plans. But I'm not a true chessmaster. You may realize I'm not starting my post in the same cheery fashion. I won't end it the same either. I thought that it was about time I told my plan to everyone. Hate. Powerful thing, isn't it? I got a text from Gemma today basically saying "I'm sick of you anyway and you do the same shit you give us shit for." First I think it's amazing that this is what my friends always though of me before this went down. "I'm sick of you anyway..." Go figure eh?
Second, I do do the same shit. My opinions don't change. I, too, am a worthless, useless mess. Unfit for this world. Unfit for anything. People shouldn't be around me. And that's the plan. I get them to hate me, but my words are still in their head. They don't want to be like me. They have motivation. Not to mention, they won't get better if they're my friends.
I almost dropped to my knees and cried today. Cried after Gemma's string of texts and insults. All true, doesn't make them any less painful. I miss her...I miss all of them. I want to drop to my knees again in front of them and apologize and beg for them to come back. But my dignity and my plan are worth more. This is better. Gemma, Gwen, Kia, everyone...*sigh*...oh well.
Till next post everyone. Stay...away...
And that's the 411.
Second, I do do the same shit. My opinions don't change. I, too, am a worthless, useless mess. Unfit for this world. Unfit for anything. People shouldn't be around me. And that's the plan. I get them to hate me, but my words are still in their head. They don't want to be like me. They have motivation. Not to mention, they won't get better if they're my friends.
I almost dropped to my knees and cried today. Cried after Gemma's string of texts and insults. All true, doesn't make them any less painful. I miss her...I miss all of them. I want to drop to my knees again in front of them and apologize and beg for them to come back. But my dignity and my plan are worth more. This is better. Gemma, Gwen, Kia, everyone...*sigh*...oh well.
Till next post everyone. Stay...away...
And that's the 411.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Love lives ruin life
Really emo-ish title? Sayings that are supposed to mean something? Actions that are supposed to mean something? Line up in a row mother fuckers cuz it's time for a Massacre!
I've really been thinking of adding some theme music in this thing.
Well my ex-girlfriend has found a new love. He's "oh so perfect and it feels like ages". I know that not every girl does this but I absolutely HATE the girls that will say "I love you" or "I'll be with you forever" or "You're my world" to ANY guy they're with. Same goes for guys who say that to girls. Kitty has said it about me and Ghebfant. She'll say it to the other 250 guys she's with.
It's funny. She tries to say "Mom made me wear it (the slutty top to the all guys party)". That's honestly hilarious. I know her mom, I've fought her for years. She'd never in a million years do that. Kitty made the choice to wear the prostitutes clothes.
Now am I the only one thinking that kissing and sex should only be with someone you love? Am I wrong for thinking it? Thinking, as Zera likes to say, in the Medieval ages? Well guess what? I'm the Medieval Massacre bitches, take a hint! The very first terminology for sex was "Making LOVE" and kissing is something you do with someone you like. And even if you DO like that person, it's really crude to take them away from their friends during a party so you can do it. If you don't want to be here, if you'd rather make out, then go do it at your house! We're not a brothel! I don't think Ippo or Zera care but whatever, this isn't their blog.
And then the little slutty bitch decides that, because she's not getting to me, she's going to attack Katherine (my new and better girlfriend whom Kitty has never and WILL never meet (for her own safety)) on HER blog. How can someone like her even THINK of insulting a true woman like Katherine? It's hilarious!
Now for the good stuff...I got a new phone...I got glasses...hmm...that's about it...yeah...life sucks.
So until next time folks, stay smart, stay strong and stay clean!
And that's the 411.
I've really been thinking of adding some theme music in this thing.
Well my ex-girlfriend has found a new love. He's "oh so perfect and it feels like ages". I know that not every girl does this but I absolutely HATE the girls that will say "I love you" or "I'll be with you forever" or "You're my world" to ANY guy they're with. Same goes for guys who say that to girls. Kitty has said it about me and Ghebfant. She'll say it to the other 250 guys she's with.
It's funny. She tries to say "Mom made me wear it (the slutty top to the all guys party)". That's honestly hilarious. I know her mom, I've fought her for years. She'd never in a million years do that. Kitty made the choice to wear the prostitutes clothes.
Now am I the only one thinking that kissing and sex should only be with someone you love? Am I wrong for thinking it? Thinking, as Zera likes to say, in the Medieval ages? Well guess what? I'm the Medieval Massacre bitches, take a hint! The very first terminology for sex was "Making LOVE" and kissing is something you do with someone you like. And even if you DO like that person, it's really crude to take them away from their friends during a party so you can do it. If you don't want to be here, if you'd rather make out, then go do it at your house! We're not a brothel! I don't think Ippo or Zera care but whatever, this isn't their blog.
And then the little slutty bitch decides that, because she's not getting to me, she's going to attack Katherine (my new and better girlfriend whom Kitty has never and WILL never meet (for her own safety)) on HER blog. How can someone like her even THINK of insulting a true woman like Katherine? It's hilarious!
Now for the good stuff...I got a new phone...I got glasses...hmm...that's about it...yeah...life sucks.
So until next time folks, stay smart, stay strong and stay clean!
And that's the 411.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Cutting out bad blood
Beat a Wii game in 30 minutes? Breaking a demo in the process? Cutting facebook friends in half? BOWLING!? Bitches best not test, it's time for a Massacre.
Let's start off good and end off good. Me, Person6 and Nitron decided to chyll after school one day and go walking across the creek. Very peaceful and the water is CLEAN! You won't find that in Malton at all. We checked out the Brunswick Lanes for a future triple-date bowling outing. Then we went trolling around the DVD's in WalMart while P6 got a tire pump for his bike. SO MANY GOLDEN COMPASS COPIES! Then we went to the indoor McDonalds to get a couple of bacon cheeseburgers and a McFlurry. We decided to walk over to the Gamestop when we were done and saw that the Wii demo available to play was New Super Mario Bros. Wii. You could only play the first 3 levels. Oh really? Nitron begs to differ! He went to a warp zone in Level 1 to go straight to Level 5! Broke the f***ing demo! From Level 5 he warped to Level 8. From Level * he shortcutted to Bowser's Castle. We headed home afterward, which is when I caught the 14 heading in the OPPOSITE DIRECTION! I fixed it and then went home.
Now for negatives. Gwen is skipping class again with Abigail. Throwing their education out of the window. I decided to cut them and all other smokers, druggies, drinkers, skippers and all around dipshits from my life, msn and facebook. 78 "friends" turned to 35 friends. Go figure eh? They broke the law again, coming to our school. I informed a teacher and our principle will make sure that they never come back. We're better without law breakers. Process of Elimination.
On Saturday it's gonna be really nice. I kinda bailed on Ryan's party but I'm going to see Katherine so it's worth it. We're gonna have fun. I wanna be with her all day^^. A little fun outside, in the rain, watch Underworld in my room back at my place. I love her so much!
Until next post people! Keep clean. Keep smart. Keep strong.
And that's the 411.
Let's start off good and end off good. Me, Person6 and Nitron decided to chyll after school one day and go walking across the creek. Very peaceful and the water is CLEAN! You won't find that in Malton at all. We checked out the Brunswick Lanes for a future triple-date bowling outing. Then we went trolling around the DVD's in WalMart while P6 got a tire pump for his bike. SO MANY GOLDEN COMPASS COPIES! Then we went to the indoor McDonalds to get a couple of bacon cheeseburgers and a McFlurry. We decided to walk over to the Gamestop when we were done and saw that the Wii demo available to play was New Super Mario Bros. Wii. You could only play the first 3 levels. Oh really? Nitron begs to differ! He went to a warp zone in Level 1 to go straight to Level 5! Broke the f***ing demo! From Level 5 he warped to Level 8. From Level * he shortcutted to Bowser's Castle. We headed home afterward, which is when I caught the 14 heading in the OPPOSITE DIRECTION! I fixed it and then went home.
Now for negatives. Gwen is skipping class again with Abigail. Throwing their education out of the window. I decided to cut them and all other smokers, druggies, drinkers, skippers and all around dipshits from my life, msn and facebook. 78 "friends" turned to 35 friends. Go figure eh? They broke the law again, coming to our school. I informed a teacher and our principle will make sure that they never come back. We're better without law breakers. Process of Elimination.
On Saturday it's gonna be really nice. I kinda bailed on Ryan's party but I'm going to see Katherine so it's worth it. We're gonna have fun. I wanna be with her all day^^. A little fun outside, in the rain, watch Underworld in my room back at my place. I love her so much!
Until next post people! Keep clean. Keep smart. Keep strong.
And that's the 411.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Several Weeks Later...
Time skip people! Shit's about to go down...it's time for a Massacre!
Well I'm with Katherine now as of April 6th. I love her and I'm so happy with her. As you can guess, I dumped the cheating, self-centered, slutty broad that I WAS with and now she's apparently whoring herself off to ANOTHER one of my friends. Like I care, I just wish they wouldn't do it when we're in a party and are supposed to be friends and hanging out together. Ippo's house is not a brothel!
I haven't seen Katherine in a while but we should see each other next weekend. I'm bringing Underworld because vampires turn her on. ^^ Who thinks I should bite her during the movie when she least expects it? Hehe.
I'm selling my animes again. Ryan is buying Rosario + Vampire Season 2 from me and Neo is buying the same one except both seasons. $45 bucks total. Only $40 I can use though. $5 I'm using for...yep you guessed it...more CD's. Ok you probably didn't guess that. Anyway I have $40 so far for Anime North.
Anime North! I might have found someone to cosplay as! Fairly inexpensive and widely known, ladies and gentlemen let me welcome, GENDO IKARI! From the hit anime written by Hideaki Anno, Neon Genesis Evangellion, Gendo is best known for planning the deaths of his family and co-workers, cloning his wife and then cloning her clones, and crossing his fingers in from of his mouth to reduce mouth-moving budget for the animators. I have his suit and his rose-colored glasses. Now i need the white gloves and the beard. Easy enough.
Well who knows when I'll write again. Till then folks, keep clean and keep strong!
And that's the 411.
Well I'm with Katherine now as of April 6th. I love her and I'm so happy with her. As you can guess, I dumped the cheating, self-centered, slutty broad that I WAS with and now she's apparently whoring herself off to ANOTHER one of my friends. Like I care, I just wish they wouldn't do it when we're in a party and are supposed to be friends and hanging out together. Ippo's house is not a brothel!
I haven't seen Katherine in a while but we should see each other next weekend. I'm bringing Underworld because vampires turn her on. ^^ Who thinks I should bite her during the movie when she least expects it? Hehe.
I'm selling my animes again. Ryan is buying Rosario + Vampire Season 2 from me and Neo is buying the same one except both seasons. $45 bucks total. Only $40 I can use though. $5 I'm using for...yep you guessed it...more CD's. Ok you probably didn't guess that. Anyway I have $40 so far for Anime North.
Anime North! I might have found someone to cosplay as! Fairly inexpensive and widely known, ladies and gentlemen let me welcome, GENDO IKARI! From the hit anime written by Hideaki Anno, Neon Genesis Evangellion, Gendo is best known for planning the deaths of his family and co-workers, cloning his wife and then cloning her clones, and crossing his fingers in from of his mouth to reduce mouth-moving budget for the animators. I have his suit and his rose-colored glasses. Now i need the white gloves and the beard. Easy enough.
Well who knows when I'll write again. Till then folks, keep clean and keep strong!
And that's the 411.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Horrible Boyfriend
No not Wrathius folks, ME!
Flirting with Katherine. Telling her I love her. And I DO! That makes it worse! All the while being with Kitty who's been oblivious to all of this. I feel horrible. What do i do? She'll read this I'm sure. I'll link her. I don't have the balls to say it directly. What the fuck do I do? My heart beat so fast when Katherine told me she loved me. And now I'm in a lot of pain. I love kitty. I love Katherine. My heart beat really fast with Katherine but Nevi can be constantly there with me.
I'm doomed.
Curse: 1
Johnny: 0
Flirting with Katherine. Telling her I love her. And I DO! That makes it worse! All the while being with Kitty who's been oblivious to all of this. I feel horrible. What do i do? She'll read this I'm sure. I'll link her. I don't have the balls to say it directly. What the fuck do I do? My heart beat so fast when Katherine told me she loved me. And now I'm in a lot of pain. I love kitty. I love Katherine. My heart beat really fast with Katherine but Nevi can be constantly there with me.
I'm doomed.
Curse: 1
Johnny: 0
Friday, April 2, 2010
Now on this weeks episode...
Just came back from going to the movies with my baby Kitty. ^^ had a lot of fun. Had a lot of "fun" too. :P I should really make a list of where we've gotten our sexual frustration out. But I digress...
I got there 3 hours late because of my alarm. Yuki and Rym were already there, but they just hung out themselves before calling me at 3:00. I jumped out of bed and ran to catch the bus. I got there and hung out with those two lovebirds. Kitty arrived at around 5:30.
We watched Clash of the Titans. Rym and Yuki had already seen their movie, Alice in Wonderland. One by Disney, one by Warner Bros. Both, AWESOME. But Pegasus isn't black. Goddamn it. As I said before we had some fun and came...hehe...home.
Tomorrow I go to the Bramalea City Center with Ippo, Zera, Nitron, Saiyu, Gheb, the Ganja Man and his bro, Noctis. Kitty might show up. Job hunt. See you then bloggers!
I got there 3 hours late because of my alarm. Yuki and Rym were already there, but they just hung out themselves before calling me at 3:00. I jumped out of bed and ran to catch the bus. I got there and hung out with those two lovebirds. Kitty arrived at around 5:30.
We watched Clash of the Titans. Rym and Yuki had already seen their movie, Alice in Wonderland. One by Disney, one by Warner Bros. Both, AWESOME. But Pegasus isn't black. Goddamn it. As I said before we had some fun and came...hehe...home.
Tomorrow I go to the Bramalea City Center with Ippo, Zera, Nitron, Saiyu, Gheb, the Ganja Man and his bro, Noctis. Kitty might show up. Job hunt. See you then bloggers!
When we last left out heroes...
They were at the Woodbine mall. Last weekend, Friday. 12:00 a.m. We hung out, dicked around for a bit, got some food. Then we decided to go to Ippo's house for a sleepover. Oh, did I mention Nitron, Zera and my Kitty were with me? Cuz that's important.
We played Dissidia and Final Fantasy X (much to the dismay of Zera). We went out at midnight to the store. Kitty didn't like the dark but we kept her company. Then we loaded up on candy and headed back when Manly Hour started. Manly Hour: Honor the manly men in anime by taking our shirts off for an hour. Unfortunately for the guys, this meant Kitty too. She kept her bra on but ditched the shirt. Then glomped everyone. We went home Saturday, but not before me and Kitty had some fun. Hehe.
On Sunday I watched Wrestlemania 26 with my grandpa, my mom, David and Amanda. It was awesome. Good news: Undertaker 18-0. Bad news: Say good-bye to Shawn Michaels. We'll miss you man!
Later on...
We played Dissidia and Final Fantasy X (much to the dismay of Zera). We went out at midnight to the store. Kitty didn't like the dark but we kept her company. Then we loaded up on candy and headed back when Manly Hour started. Manly Hour: Honor the manly men in anime by taking our shirts off for an hour. Unfortunately for the guys, this meant Kitty too. She kept her bra on but ditched the shirt. Then glomped everyone. We went home Saturday, but not before me and Kitty had some fun. Hehe.
On Sunday I watched Wrestlemania 26 with my grandpa, my mom, David and Amanda. It was awesome. Good news: Undertaker 18-0. Bad news: Say good-bye to Shawn Michaels. We'll miss you man!
Later on...
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Birthday Party
Murder mysteries? Chase scenes? Brawl? Music? Portal Cake? AWW YEAH! It's time for a Massacre!
So many people showed up for my party! Everybody but Ryan (not his fault, no money). I hooked my friend Rym with my other friend Yuki and Nitron with Kavo. My matchmaking streak is up to 24-0 now baby! It was a 16th birthday party to remember for the rest of my life. Took a lot of pics and I'm putting them on Facebook after this post.
Well let's go in order. I had ginger ale and orange pop for drinking and three different types of chips (Normal, Barbecue and Ketchup). No-one was allowed in the fridge but me and my mom though because of the Portal Cake. We made that for everyone with a birthday in March and it turned out like an exact replica. My ice cream cake was waiting but I had no idea the surprise in store.
When we came inside we got a card. It said that we were playing a Role-Playing game together while the party was going on. This birthday party was made by our "Gym Teacher" being played by Neo. My mom was the Counselor and Amanda was the principal. Now each of us had a deformity that we had to figure out why we had. For example: I had the fact that every once in a while I would get amnesia and forget where I was and why I was there. When I was reminded thanks to the guests I would have a splitting headache. Eventually we found out Dan had killed us and we were ghosts. We had to find out how we died -I had my brain carved out- and tell Dan to take a part of his soul so that he died. It was a lot of fun. I tried to play music but if I did I was deafening Abigail! Clever bastards!
We had the cakes. Zeratoth flipped when he saw the Portal Cake and I flipped when I saw Nia and Simon from Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann on my cake. They stole it from this laptop's background! I screen-capped that from the anime itself. Ha ha. INB4 moon is cockblock.
We then hooked up the systems and played Super Smash Bros. Brawl and Saiyu channeled the power of Ganja Man. He played Luigi and used Ganja Space and won the match. Later on, we played New Super Mario Bros. Wii. It was a great party overall and I had a lot of fun.
Sleeping arrangements were horrid. Saiyu, Ippo and Nitron were on the floor of my room while Gheb, Zera and P6 were in the bed. I was on the floor in my nanna's room with Mitch and Neo. Mom, Kyoni, Yuki and Epona were in the bed. We had some lulz before heading to sleep. I couldn't sleep so I switched with Rym in the room with Khuum and Kyubi.
All and all I'd like to thank everyone who showed up for making my birthday amazing. I love you all.
--Massacre
So many people showed up for my party! Everybody but Ryan (not his fault, no money). I hooked my friend Rym with my other friend Yuki and Nitron with Kavo. My matchmaking streak is up to 24-0 now baby! It was a 16th birthday party to remember for the rest of my life. Took a lot of pics and I'm putting them on Facebook after this post.
Well let's go in order. I had ginger ale and orange pop for drinking and three different types of chips (Normal, Barbecue and Ketchup). No-one was allowed in the fridge but me and my mom though because of the Portal Cake. We made that for everyone with a birthday in March and it turned out like an exact replica. My ice cream cake was waiting but I had no idea the surprise in store.
When we came inside we got a card. It said that we were playing a Role-Playing game together while the party was going on. This birthday party was made by our "Gym Teacher" being played by Neo. My mom was the Counselor and Amanda was the principal. Now each of us had a deformity that we had to figure out why we had. For example: I had the fact that every once in a while I would get amnesia and forget where I was and why I was there. When I was reminded thanks to the guests I would have a splitting headache. Eventually we found out Dan had killed us and we were ghosts. We had to find out how we died -I had my brain carved out- and tell Dan to take a part of his soul so that he died. It was a lot of fun. I tried to play music but if I did I was deafening Abigail! Clever bastards!
We had the cakes. Zeratoth flipped when he saw the Portal Cake and I flipped when I saw Nia and Simon from Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann on my cake. They stole it from this laptop's background! I screen-capped that from the anime itself. Ha ha. INB4 moon is cockblock.
We then hooked up the systems and played Super Smash Bros. Brawl and Saiyu channeled the power of Ganja Man. He played Luigi and used Ganja Space and won the match. Later on, we played New Super Mario Bros. Wii. It was a great party overall and I had a lot of fun.
Sleeping arrangements were horrid. Saiyu, Ippo and Nitron were on the floor of my room while Gheb, Zera and P6 were in the bed. I was on the floor in my nanna's room with Mitch and Neo. Mom, Kyoni, Yuki and Epona were in the bed. We had some lulz before heading to sleep. I couldn't sleep so I switched with Rym in the room with Khuum and Kyubi.
All and all I'd like to thank everyone who showed up for making my birthday amazing. I love you all.
--Massacre
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
HENSHIN! Kamen Rider Terra!
Final Attack Ride! R-R-R-Riot Blade!
OK now that I've gotten the geeky shit over with time for a Massacre. My friends Zera and Ippo decided to stay another night and Yuki kinda sorta bailed on me. That's cool, thank god for the Nakama. For those of you reading this and aren't anime geeks, GTFO! Seriously though Nakama means a friendly family, I'm sure I said that. Kyubi is being an asshole right now. Can't go into full detail but Ippo MAD.
Party on Friday bitches time to ROCK OUT WITH MY PROVERBIAL COCK OUT!
FOR OURS IS THE DRILL THAT SHALL PIERCE THE HEAVENS!
WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM!?
OK now that I've gotten the geeky shit over with time for a Massacre. My friends Zera and Ippo decided to stay another night and Yuki kinda sorta bailed on me. That's cool, thank god for the Nakama. For those of you reading this and aren't anime geeks, GTFO! Seriously though Nakama means a friendly family, I'm sure I said that. Kyubi is being an asshole right now. Can't go into full detail but Ippo MAD.
Party on Friday bitches time to ROCK OUT WITH MY PROVERBIAL COCK OUT!
FOR OURS IS THE DRILL THAT SHALL PIERCE THE HEAVENS!
WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM!?
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
March Break
Hey again bloggers! Time for another Massacre. This post is brought to you by the powers of March Break and Ghebology. They go hand in hand of course but, then again, Ghebology will take any hand. I'm digressing so let's get this blog underway.
My entire March Break is planned and it feels good to be a teenager with plans. Yesterday was my birthday, I'm officially 16 years old now. It feels good, This is my first birthday in which I actually feel myself becoming a year older. For it I got a wickedly sweet slide show from my parents to the tune of "I Swear". Also I got my laptop, which I'm typing on right now.
Today Zera and Ippo are coming over followed by Neo later on. We'll get in some Dissidia: Final Fantasy training and I'll finally learn how to play Megaman Starforce. After we might play some Enchanted Arms or watch Kodomo No Jikan (A Child's Time), the SWEETEST ANIME EVER and it's about a love story between a 9 year old and a 26 year old. So yeah...
Tomorrow I'll hang out with Yuki. It's been a while since we've done that. Pretty much since I moved to Ching. It'll be nice to reminisce and catch up. Also I gotta hand her a picture of me and mom for Blaze's b-day gift. Hope she doesn't read this...
Thursday I'm going shopping with Abigail and Navi. I get to pick dresses out for them^^. It'll be awesome I can't wait. Abi also might pick something out from AE for me XD. I might be a doll too. Yay!
Friday is my party. Everyone will be there and it'll be so awesome. Dancing and video games, life is good. Ippo got a girlfriend and he's a lot happier now. Kitty came down on Monday (my b-day) and we hung out. She coming again on Saturday before Blaze's party (If anyone asks, the party starts at NOON *shifty eyes*). Blaze's party is at Wildwood on Saturday at 4:30...I mean NOON. Ahem. Moving on. I made a video journal that seems to be working out fine.
See you later people!
--Massacre
My entire March Break is planned and it feels good to be a teenager with plans. Yesterday was my birthday, I'm officially 16 years old now. It feels good, This is my first birthday in which I actually feel myself becoming a year older. For it I got a wickedly sweet slide show from my parents to the tune of "I Swear". Also I got my laptop, which I'm typing on right now.
Today Zera and Ippo are coming over followed by Neo later on. We'll get in some Dissidia: Final Fantasy training and I'll finally learn how to play Megaman Starforce. After we might play some Enchanted Arms or watch Kodomo No Jikan (A Child's Time), the SWEETEST ANIME EVER and it's about a love story between a 9 year old and a 26 year old. So yeah...
Tomorrow I'll hang out with Yuki. It's been a while since we've done that. Pretty much since I moved to Ching. It'll be nice to reminisce and catch up. Also I gotta hand her a picture of me and mom for Blaze's b-day gift. Hope she doesn't read this...
Thursday I'm going shopping with Abigail and Navi. I get to pick dresses out for them^^. It'll be awesome I can't wait. Abi also might pick something out from AE for me XD. I might be a doll too. Yay!
Friday is my party. Everyone will be there and it'll be so awesome. Dancing and video games, life is good. Ippo got a girlfriend and he's a lot happier now. Kitty came down on Monday (my b-day) and we hung out. She coming again on Saturday before Blaze's party (If anyone asks, the party starts at NOON *shifty eyes*). Blaze's party is at Wildwood on Saturday at 4:30...I mean NOON. Ahem. Moving on. I made a video journal that seems to be working out fine.
See you later people!
--Massacre
Monday, March 8, 2010
Down the Rabbit Hole and Back Again
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Thursday, March 4, 2010
Love Resurrection?
Two posts in one day. Odd. Well I'm currently talking to an ex of mine that I broke up with. I'm still in love with her and she still loves me. I want to be with her again and she feels the same. I have to talk to Sam. Explain to her that I like her, but I love Kitty. For blog purposes we'll call her Kitty. We felt the best together. We had the ability to make each other smile in every possible way. I'm getting my hopes up and I know I shouldn't.
Worst Boyfriend Ever
I hate myself. Great way to start a blog, eh? But I really do. I hate how I act, what I say, what I do, who I am. Today I made explicit rude, disgusting, perverted comments toward a friend of mine that I'm falling hard for. While my girlfriend was there. Navi (girl I commented on) laughed about it, as did my surrounding friends, even Sam, but I hated myself for it. I wanted to say what I was thinking. But how do you blurt out something like "I can't get my mind off of you. You're the perfect girl in my opinion. You're breathtakingly beautiful and one of the sweetest girls I've ever met and all I want to do is hold you in my arms the same way you'd like to be held by him."? Him. Navi asked me to set her up with a man. I couldn't exactly say "I don't want to. I want you". So I set her up with my friend Ryan. He's vastly superior to me in every way, and much better looking. He doesn't fuck up his sentences by saying inappropriate bull shit. He plays in a rock band. All in all, he's perfect. And she's perfect. So they're meant for each other. Just another of the 100+ girls who have rejected me. I'm happy for them. Now to go cry...
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
A stroll through memory lane
Today was one of the most peaceful days I've had in a long time. Although I didn't get to make the biscuits that we were promised in class, it could have gone worse. We had a speaker talk to us today in Careers about the Apprenticeship Program. Sounds amazing but I know where I'm going. After high school I'm heading to Guelph University to study Biochemistry. I hope one day I could be the main reason why science evolves to a whole other level. Even history was ok. We had a unit test and I feel that I did pretty well despite not knowing anything of Vimy Ridge. Which was worth 6/40 marks so bollacks to that. When I think back, Germany got screwed over big time in WWI. For those of you who don't know, here's a rundown. WWI was started when a terrorist kid with a handgun from a Serbian terrorist group shot the Archduke Ferdinand of Austria-Hungary and his wife Sophia. So double bollacks for Serbia. Germany, at the end of the war, due to the Treaty of Versailles, was forced to take the blame for starting it. WTF? Sorry folks, but history fascinated the fuke outta me.
But what was the highlight of my day you might ask? I had a date with a really sweet and special woman today. I went to pick up Sam at her All Girls Catholic School. Teachers were surrounding her at the doorway saying things like, "When's he gonna get here huh? Huh? HUH?". Seriously bitch I gotta walk, gimme some time! Fuckin nuns I swear to...well you get the point. After liberating her from that shit-tasm we took a walk through like 3 different parks. Living in a town where you can barely walk through the streets in daytime without getting jumped, it felt amazing to walk through a secluded park and not have to worry. It was warm today so I wore my leather jacket undone, marking the first time I've worn it at all in that town. First time for everything, right? Well we passed like 3 different elementary schools, one for each park to be exact, and one was even my old elementary school. My stroll had literally turned down memory lane. Before we departed I placed a gentle kiss on her lips and walked back to school, light in my step and happier than I had been in a long time.
Weekend approaching fast and teachers are hinting at a lot of homework. See you soon bloggers! Massacre out!
But what was the highlight of my day you might ask? I had a date with a really sweet and special woman today. I went to pick up Sam at her All Girls Catholic School. Teachers were surrounding her at the doorway saying things like, "When's he gonna get here huh? Huh? HUH?". Seriously bitch I gotta walk, gimme some time! Fuckin nuns I swear to...well you get the point. After liberating her from that shit-tasm we took a walk through like 3 different parks. Living in a town where you can barely walk through the streets in daytime without getting jumped, it felt amazing to walk through a secluded park and not have to worry. It was warm today so I wore my leather jacket undone, marking the first time I've worn it at all in that town. First time for everything, right? Well we passed like 3 different elementary schools, one for each park to be exact, and one was even my old elementary school. My stroll had literally turned down memory lane. Before we departed I placed a gentle kiss on her lips and walked back to school, light in my step and happier than I had been in a long time.
Weekend approaching fast and teachers are hinting at a lot of homework. See you soon bloggers! Massacre out!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
First Entry
Hey all. First time trying something like this out, and it seems to be working for my friend Abigail. She's having a rough time and I've finding it hard to help her. Her friend is suicidal and it scares me. The last time one of my friends was suicidal and I tried to help, I lost her for nearly a year. But she was alive and that's what matters right?
But what's my biggest problem? Love. Love is a problem that affects teens and adults alike. My curse is that when I like a girl, and she rejects me (which happens often), I still like her. I mean, do feelings really go away that quickly for some people? I guess, but I'm not like that. Getting back to the point, me and Abigail used to go out about 2 years ago and we split up because of her mom not liking chubby people. For those of you going "WTF?", I'm with you. But it happened and she moved on. I didn't. I still love her. And my relationships feel like a lie because of it. I'm going out with a very sweet girl named Sam and I WANT to love her. But I can't. Not when I'm constantly thinking of Abi. It seems like I'm being unfaithful. But I need to get over it. I have to.
Other than that I just transferred to a Brampton school and my schooling is so much better. Which means I should probably be going to bed. Gotta wake up early. Public transportation is a bitch. My birthday is coming up soon so look for my party aftermath blog folks! Night!
But what's my biggest problem? Love. Love is a problem that affects teens and adults alike. My curse is that when I like a girl, and she rejects me (which happens often), I still like her. I mean, do feelings really go away that quickly for some people? I guess, but I'm not like that. Getting back to the point, me and Abigail used to go out about 2 years ago and we split up because of her mom not liking chubby people. For those of you going "WTF?", I'm with you. But it happened and she moved on. I didn't. I still love her. And my relationships feel like a lie because of it. I'm going out with a very sweet girl named Sam and I WANT to love her. But I can't. Not when I'm constantly thinking of Abi. It seems like I'm being unfaithful. But I need to get over it. I have to.
Other than that I just transferred to a Brampton school and my schooling is so much better. Which means I should probably be going to bed. Gotta wake up early. Public transportation is a bitch. My birthday is coming up soon so look for my party aftermath blog folks! Night!
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